I Knew There Was a Reason

I stayed home from work today. I wasn't feeling well this morning, and I didn't sleep well. I also have been having some pain in my side, so I figured today would be a good opportunity to go to the doctor about that and the pain I've had under my arms for weeks.

Now to the reason for my blog title today.

It was nothing. Probably just a rib that was a bit out of place, rubbing on my insides. So, nothing. Then, the doctor prodded my stomach so hard it's hurting. How's that for ironic? That's why I don't go to the doctor. It's never anything big. I feel like I waste the doctor's time with my hypochondria. I always think there's something wrong. And then I leave feeling kind of foolish.

I don't know how you all feel, but I hate going to the doctor. Usually it's just because I'm scared of something being wrong, but I also hate the idea that I'm going there for nothing. But, I guess it's better to go and ease my mind than not and have something really wrong be happening.

I dunno.

Anyway, I'm going to go back to chilling in the only cool place in my house - the basement.

Another Deal has Fallen Through

Yes, another deal has fallen through. Our house still has not sold. It's too bad, because I knew that the guy who was buying it wouldn't be able to do it. It was a guy that hubby had to "lay off" (aka fire) because he didn't have his shit together. Then, him and his new girlfriend (of a few months) decided to move and buy a new house. Now, the thing about the girlfriend. The guy was actually with someone else, I think until January or February. The mother of his little girl, who is just over one year old. He basically jumped from her bed to the new girlfriend's. Then there was a period in April that he was back and forth, and then he decides to move and buy a house with the new one. Can you say stupid?! So, now we've waiting almost a month, and we're back to square one. How many people go through this many failed offers? Apparently our idiot realtor is meeting someone today to write up and offer that will be on condition of sale. I'm not too excited about it. And our realtor is so dumb I doubt I'll be able to even get any questions answered. Oye. I just want this to be over. So over. Now we have to wait even longer. I'm so tired of this.

Ok. Time to get ready for work. I'm just so annoyed.

Tuesday Weigh-In

Another Tuesday is upon us! In Canada we celebrated Victoria Day yesterday, and got the day off of work. Love long weekends! Usually, it's the first weekend most people go out camping, and it snows. Well, we were lucky enough to get the snow a couple of days before the weekend, making it a really nice weekend. So nice, in fact, that I got sunburnt. I wore sunscreen on Saturday, but by the time I thought about it on Sunday I was burnt. Spent most of the afternoon in the shade but it still hurts to move today!
I weighed in this morning at 202 pounds. No change. I'm glad. With all of the crappy eating that usually accompanies camping, I did really well. Now it's time to kick it into gear. The weather is dreary today, so I guess I'll be working out inside. Not so bad though. I have a lot to get caught up on.
Do any of you out there have someone come in and do cleaning for you? I'm thinking about hiring someone to come in once a week, and do my bathrooms and floors. I can keep up on my own laundry and dishes, and keeping everything else tidy, but bathrooms and floors get left behind a lot. I don't think I'll be doing any of that until the fall, but I wonder if it's worth it. I think it is. A clean house is a happy house!
Anyways. Back to work. Another slow day by the sounds of it (no customers and only one phone call in the first hour and a half).

 

Wednesday Weigh-In

Back to weigh-ins. I weighed in Monday at 204.5 pounds, yesterday at 202.5 pounds, and today at 202 pounds. Now, if only I can keep this going! 2.5 pounds so far is really good! I just have to not give into temptation for this weekend. No buying chips and junk! We're not even 100% sure where we're camping yet, but hopefully it's somewhere we can take Molly for lots of good walks. At least I'll be forced to get my exercise! Even if it is snowing!

I've decided that I need to go back to little rewards for my weight loss. Little goals and rewards never hurt! So, when I get to 195 pounds, just a mere 7 pounds away, I'm going to schedule a much needed pedicure. Now, I hope I can hit that before the wedding so that I have nice feet for the wedding, but if not, that's ok. I'm not going to put timelines on. I want to be 160 pounds by the end of the year. Right now, that's 42 pounds away. According to BMI I should be anywhere from 110-145 pounds. I would like to be in the 150s, but for this year, I will settle for low 160s. I'm sure once I get that low it will be a huge struggle to lose the rest, but at least at 160, I think I will feel good about myself. Then I just have to keep working out and going at it and eventually I will be where I need to be.

Now, I should go and get ready for work. I'm actually blogging before work today! Not at work! Big surprise there! I've been off track and I know I need to blog more, so I will try!!

Have a great day out there!

Thursday Weigh-In

Finally down a little bit! I weighed-in this morning at 201.5 pounds. Not great, but it's better.

Yesterday I watched what I ate, and while it wasn't all the best of food, it was better than what I have been eating.

I spoke to a good friend, B, yesterday as well. She gave me a lot to think about. More on that to come once I've had a chance to think about it.

It's a gloomy morning here, but it's supposed to get nicer. I hope it does! Have a great day out there everyone!

 

 

Wednesday Weigh-In

I'm  still at 203.5 pounds. I shouldn't be surprised - yesterday was a non-stop eatfest. Gotta pull myself together!! This is ridiculous!

 

 

Tuesday Weigh-In

Frick! It just keeps getting worse! This morning I weighed in at 203.5 pounds! I gained another pound and a half!

This has just got to stop. Bahhhhhh!

 

Monday Weigh-In

So not please. Actually, I was quite pissed this morning. I had planned on weighing in yesterday, but I woke up at 3:30 in the morning, and ate before I weighed. I was so tired I didn't even realize it.

Last weigh-in was April 16. I can't believe it was that long ago! Here's what happened:

April 16 - 198.5 pounds

May 7 - 202 pounds

A gain of 1.5 pounds.

So mad! I can't even believe it. I wasn't necessarily following a diet, but I thought I was doing pretty well. Apparently not. All it does is piss me off. I'm so dehydrated that I'm sure that's part of it, but I'm still mad. Mad at myself, and no one else. There is no one else to blame.

But, a month until I leave to visit friends and go to a wedding. One month to kick ass. I walked to work today, so that's a start. But frick. I just want to get this going. Good luck losing 15 pounds this month Kara!

Oye.

 

Feeling Off

I think this week has just been one of those weeks. And it's ain't over yet!

I've felt kind of off track all week, and I've missed a few "official" weigh-ins, and everything seems off. Last night, I felt faint walking up the stairs. It wasn't cool. It was early in the evening, and I made it for the rest of the night, but it was so weird.

This morning, I went and saw my friend TA, who owns the local coffee shop, and got myself a London Fog. Let's see if some love from London can get me back into a good mood! I need to get onto the Vitamin D as well. Something is just off, and I have no idea what. I'm aching for the weekend, and I have no idea why. I don't do anything! Hubby works and works and works, and I sit at home on my ass. Maybe it's because I don't have as much to do this weekend. Maybe.

Anyways. I'm off to work. Well, I'm already there, but I should do something other than drink my London Fog and type this up!

 

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Skipping Weigh-Ins

Bad girl! I know! I shouldn't be skipping weigh-ins. How am I going to stay accountable when I don't stay accountable!?

It's been a tough couple of weeks. Not tough as in life, tough as in motivation. I have none! Still! It's super annoying. I just want to get back on track, but I'm at a loss. I'm craving diet Coke like crazy, and wildberry Twizzlers. So stupid! Moving a block away from a convenience store might not have been the best idea!

I think things might be slowly turning around. Yesterday, I worked out at lunch. Tread climbed it! It was pretty nice, actually. I was planning on doing a workout when I got home too, but I didn't eat right during the day, and I was wiped. I did, however, sit in the sunshine and read a book - and soaked up some Vitamin D! I've been feeling kind of down, so I think that might help. I started taking my Vitamin D pills as well; hopefully that will help.

I really want to start focusing. Almost a month until my friend B's wedding. I want to be in the mid-low 180s by then. SO BADLY! But I lack the motivation to get there. In a month, I need to lose about 15 pounds. I think I'll feel good if I can at least make it to 10 pounds lost. I know how crazy that sounds, believe me. But, As of May 7 (exactly 1 month before we leave for Fairmont) I am cutting out all junk. No giving into cravings, no diet Coke, no Twizzlers, no white bread, no white pasta, no white rice. Veggies, lean meat, and some carbs are going to be all I'm going to eat. This week is my trial for that - we'll see how it goes. So far so good. Hubby's birthday is on the 15th, so yes, I will tell you right now, I am going to cheat and have a piece of cake - especially since I am going to be the one making it! But a small piece! I think if I can stick to it for a whole month, I will see the changes that I want to see. As long as I work my butt off, I know I can make something happen.

Anyways, I should maybe get back to work. So dead though...