Stressed Out

Ok. Time to confess why my weight loss has come to a halt (basically). I am super stressed. We put down an offer on a house up here on Friday, and it was accepted. Good news, right? Well, now we have to go through figuring out if we will be approved for it, and all that jazz. Nice thing is that we will basically have it figured out by February 15, but the next couple of weeks are going to be stressful.

And, let's face it, we all know stress is my mortal enemy. I shut down when faced with stress. This time I'm going to try to combat it. I just wish I could go for a walk outside without freezing my ass off. That would be much appreciated! I always feel better after a walk, and being on my tread climber is just not the same. I guess I'll just have to deal with it and go. I hope that I can remain somewhat stress free. Here's to the dream!

Today, one of our salesmen from Fort St John is coming up, and my mom is sending up fresh fruits and vegetables with him. I am so excited! It's so difficult here. Nothing looks good! I bought some red delicious apples, which I don't really like, but they were the only ones that looked decent. I just ate one, and it was the most grainy apple I've ever eaten. So gross! And I'm betting that this orange that I have to eat now is just as bad. I had one on Friday, and it had no taste. Ugh, so lame! I can't wait to have some nice crunchy grapes, and Ambrosia apples and oranges with taste! So exciting!

Oh, and I'd like to give a little shout out to my friend MK who ran 12 km last night which tops her previous achievement of 5-6! Way to go MK! I'm jealous that you can still go out and run without freezing your butt off!

Anyway, I should get back to work. Ugh. Don't. Wanna. Be. Here.

Official Weigh-In #4

Ugh, what a week.

Sunday, January 22: 209 pounds
Sunday, January 29: 208 pounds
Total loss in 2012: 5.5 pounds
4.5 pounds to go to the first goal of 10 pounds

Yeah. Ugh. I could have done so much better! It's lame. Two more weeks to go, and 4.5 pounds to lose. I better get it together!

More tomorrow!

Bucket List

Anyone out there have a bucket list?

As you may have noticed, I have added one to my blog, and I've put my very first item on it - Run the Vancouver Sun Run. It's a 10K through the streets of Vancouver. I think, if I start working at it slowly now, and once spring comes, I should be able to do it!

I'm going to slowly keep adding to it. I'm sure that I had a bucket list on a previous blog, but I can't recall anything that's on it.

Anyways, I am at work, so maybe I should do something!

Have a great day all!

Official Weigh-In #3

What a super crappy week. Lots of work, and bad bad food choices.

Want to see how it went?

Sunday, January 15: 209 pounds
Sunday, January 22: 209 pounds

So, not necessarily a bad week, but not a good week. I've still lost 4.5 pounds this year, so I have to look at that. It's better than nothing, but this week I have to change.

I was texting with my weight-loss buddy, MK, and we are both happy that Sunday means that a fresh start to the week. I better get down some pounds. I have 3 weeks to lose 5.5 pounds to reach my goal!

Mini-Break

Ah, finally. I can take a breather at work. Only for a few minutes, because we still have a lot of stock to put away.

Yesterday freight didn't arrive until 4. It is supposed to be here at 10. Not cool. We were here until 7, and we only got customer stock done. Now we have our re-stock to do.

Good news is that I'm holding on at 209 pounds. Bad new is, I haven't lost. Not the worst news ever.

But, it seems that whenever I have a quiet moment, I think about crocheting. I don't know what it is. I'm addicted. Plain and simple.

This month I joined a "flower swap" with another blog (I'll post the details on my other blog, lbk creations). Basically, you make a bunch of flowers, or squares with flowers (basically, flowers, flowers and more flowers) and then send them to your swap sister to make something for herself. Last night I made 2 flowers, and I've been googling all morning to come up with more ideas. I have until the end of February to get them made and sent out, but I want to be prepared. I want to give my swap sister something awesome. If you have any flowery ideas, let me know!

Anyways, I should get back to work. Oh what fun. I want a break. 8 hours of OT this week and there's still 2 days left! Oye!

Tuesday. Ah, Tuesday.

I don't know about you, but my Monday was looooong. I worked from 7-6 with only half an hour for lunch!

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I started this post on Tuesday around 10AM. It's not Wednesday at 7AM. Yep, that's how busy work has been.

Today, I came in at 6:30, exactly 12 hours after I left yesterday. It's so busy, and we are so far behind. The bossman is in Toronto for our annual "aren't we awesome" conference. Somehow, though I am the newest member of the team, that left me in charge. Or at least it seems like it. The back guys come to me to let me know what they're doing, and I'm here first and out last.

Phew. I can't wait until the weekend! Though, with how bad it looks, I might have to come in on Saturday :(

Suffice it to say, food has not been good this week, nor has exercise. Last night we had pizza, and not even remotely healthy. I'm not drinking enough water, and by the time I get home I want to sleep, so I haven't been working out. And I need to get different work shoes. I found some pretty cool looking steel toes, but they are just killing me.

But, I should get going. I have so much to do today! I'm still working on stuff from Monday, and usually I stay caught up and finish everything the day I get it. It's not looking good.

I'm already at 5.5 hours of overtime, and it's Wednesday morning. Whoopie [enter sarcasm].

 

Official Weigh-In #2

Can you believe it's the third Sunday of 2012 already?? I just can't! It seems too crazy!

I did my weigh-in, and I have to admit, it didn't look too good. I don't think I worked out at all this week, and my food was up and down. So was my mood. Friday I wouldn't eat because we were going out to meet people and I felt too fat. Turns out it was awesome, but I basically only ate 500-ish calories. I skipped breakfast, and only had lunch. Not the way to lose weight, I know, but my head was in the wrong place. I assumed that I gained a bunch of weight this week, and that I was failing. It sucked so bad. I hate feeling like that.

But, I woke up this morning and weighed, and I feel better:

Sunday, January 8: 211 pounds
Sunday, January 15: 209 pounds
That's a loss of 2 pounds!!!
Total lost in 2012: 4.5 pounds
5.5 pounds to go to my first goal!

I think 4.5 pounds in 2 weeks is awesome! I really need to focus, and try my best. I know, 4.5 pounds is awesome, but I haven't been working my best. I haven't been working out much, but I have been trying to watch my food. Obviously, weight is based on 80% of what you eat. I've been finding that. I need to start trying to eat more fruits and veggies, but it's so hard when the availability it limited up here.

Anyways, I'm going to get going. I am hungry...time for some breakfast!

Off Track

It seems to me that every Wednesday, I fall off track. I don't know what it is! Monday and Tuesday are fine, and then Wednesday hits and I feel very "blah."

 

Yesterday, we got a TON of freight in from Edmonton, and it was all hands on deck until 6 - I usually get off at 4. Generally, I work on the counter, and let the guys in the back do all of the picking. When we get a lot of freight in, I leave my counterpart, Will, and go into the back. It was so hectic. We have room for about 4 pallets of freight, and we got in 8. It's better than it has been, but when you have customers coming in and needing stuff out of freight, it gets difficult.

 

Suffice it to say, I was tired when I got home. For once, John made it home earlier than I did! I didn't really feel like eating, so John made himself dinner, and then I proceeded to pick at food all night. Such a bad idea! I was down a pound from Sunday, but I gained it back yesterday. It sucks!

 

And, I've only worked out once, on Monday. Sunday I did practically nothing, and Tuesday is generally my "day off" so I didn't do anything. Tonight is my first yoga class though, so I'm excited. It's going to feel nice, I think! It's a beginner's class, once a week. I've also been following the local yoga studio on Facebook, just in case I feel like taking another class. The thing I like about the one I'm going to is that it's at our Rec Centre that is brand new, and you pay for a session - I'm paid up until March 8. There are other classes you could take too, I just wish there was a step or spin class. Maybe one of the gyms offers that, I'm not sure.

 

Anyways, Wednesdays. They are killing me. I think I might have to make Wednesday my early morning workout day, and get up at 5, work out before work, and if I feel like it, throw in a JM DVD at the end of the day.

 

Back to work now. Maybe something interesting will happen...

Official Weigh-In #1

Hey all! It's the first official weigh-in of 2012! How do you think I did??

I was super confident this week. I was tracking my food, exercising, and doing a pretty great detox. It's better than I have been doing in weeks. Months, even. Then there was Friday.

I went and got my hair cut after work (and found someone who did a pretty great job on the first try!) and I had planned on going grocery shopping after to buy something good for dinner. Something quick and easy. But, when I was done getting my hair cut, I had no interest in shopping or cooking. Bad idea! So, what did we do? We went out for dinner. To Boston Pizza. And honestly, even though they have a "healthy choices" section, I don't like any of the food, so I don't even look at it. I definitely over ate, but John and I actually got a few other things in our life figured out (our money situation is looking much better now, thanks to a good chance to talk it out) so I figured it was a good sacrifice.

Then, yesterday morning I woke up at 4 am, wide awake. There was no way I was going back to sleep. So, I got up, watched some tv, and crocheted a bit. I finally got back to sleep at around 11. It was just not my day. I had planned on doing an hour on my tread climber, instead of the 30 minutes I had been doing, but I barely had the energy to go grocery shopping!

So basically, the last couple of days of the week sucked, but the beginning of the week was good. I was actually scared to weigh this morning. I didn't want to see a gain on the scale. I just don't want to see that at all. I think if I saw a gain, I would totally sabotage myself, and I don't need that.

Well, are you curious now?? Here's how it went down:

Sunday, January 1: 213.5 pounds
Sunday, January 8: 211 pounds
That's a loss of 2.5 pounds!!!

Yup, I still lost! Even with a couple of crappy days, I still lost! I am back to believing that I can lose this first 10 pounds easily! And that feels pretty darn good!

I'm going at this slow and steady, but I think that's the key. Slow and steady is going to win this race!

Blonde Moment

I totally had a blonde moment. I was thinking about my goals for weight loss for this year, and I thought I had only planned on losing 45 pounds, which would put me at 168.5 pounds. Silly me! I plan on losing 55 pounds, putting me at 158.5 pounds! Silly me! I wanted to be in the 150s by the end of the year, and I was disappointed that after all of my dieting, I'd still have 10 more to go! Oh man. I'm glad I realized the difference! I feel much better now.

 

I can't wait to hit that 10 pound goal...lululemon hoodie :)

Reflection

Well, so far so good this week. Week 1 of the year. Wow, still so hard to believe!

 

I've started using the livestrong.com app, My Daily Plate, and I'm loving it! I love that I can add in my own foods, and track everything - breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks - separately, and my water consumption, and exercise. There's also a graph to track my weight loss. So nice! I no longer have to carry around a notebook to keep track of things. I have it all on my iPhone!

 

I've done 2 workouts so far this week. I'm taking it fairly easy, just until I get into it again. I don't want my Achilles tendon to keep me down at all. I need to get a routine for stretching after workouts, so if anyone has any suggestions, let me know! I also signed up for a beginner's yoga class starting next Thursday. I am very excited to try it out! It's been so long since I've done a yoga class. I'm sure I'll enjoy it as long as the instructor is good. I'm also signed up for a class in February as part of a Women's Weekend. There is a "lecture" of sorts from Linda Edgecombe, and I signed up for a photography course and the yoga class. Should be fun!

 

"Shift or Get Off The Pot - Simple Truths about Getting a Life" is the theme of the women's weekend. Linda has just wrote a book on the subject, and is coming to talk about it. It's all about coming up with strategies and goals for living life more happily and satisfied. I think it's the perfect theme to go along with losing weight. It's all about becoming happier, I think. Should be fun, anyways. She sounds fairly humorous, so it should be fun.

 

Four days into the new year, and I'm feeling good. I think I should be able to reach my first goal easily - but I guess we will see once I do my second weigh in. I feel like I should be able to lose a couple of pounds this week, as long as I keep doing what I'm doing. It does take a lot more work to lose weight though. Not as much as I though, but I think it takes more pre-planning. I actually have to cook my meals, or else I have no idea how many calories are in it. I have to look at portion sizes of the foods I want to eat to make sure I'm not going crazy. It's definitely hard. Especially at night. Nights are the worst. I don't do much after I get home from work, so all I want to do is eat. Boredom is a killer!

 

Anyway, I think, so far so  good. Overall, I'm feeling awesome, and I hope it continues!

2012 - Bring It On

Happy New Year! Welcome to 2012!

We didn't do anything this year to ring it in. We watched the IIHF Canada/USA game (Yay! Canada won, beating our biggest rival and keeping an undefeated title!) with Curt and Kristie, then watched some comedy before heading to bed well before midnight. Lame, right? Not really.

I've been sick for weeks now. I've actually been going to bed at 7 or 8 every night. One night last week I even went to bed at 6. I had the flu a few weeks ago, and I just haven't felt right since. I had a few good days, but then I've been battling indigestion and acid reflux and a massive headache. Yesterday, there was a large fire somewhere, and the smoke just hung around town (one of the problems when there is no wind to move it out) and it made breathing difficult. I think my body is just telling me to get my ass in gear and get healthy. So, I will! 2012 better be a good year for weight loss - much better than 2011!

As I told you in previous posts, I have set up some goals. I did weigh-in this morning, so here we go:

Sunday, January 1, 2012 - 213.5 pounds
GOAL: Sunday, February 12 - 203.5 pounds
REWARD: lululemon hoodie

Ok, so this first 10 pounds should be easy enough to get rid of. I have a detox that I'm going to do, and I'm going to do my best for this first week to cut out refined carbs. Might be easier said than done, but even if I can do it for most of the days this week, I should see something decent on the scale next week.

If, for some odd reason, I get those 10 pounds off before February 12, I'll start my next goal from that point. With my starting weight, and my current goal to lose 45 pounds by October, that should put me at 168.5 pounds, which is higher than my ultimate goal, but if I can get there by October, I should be able to lose that last 10 pounds and be in the 150s by December.

We'l see how it goes. I do NOT want to end 2012 as big as I am now. I don't want to see 213.5 or higher  on the scale ever again. In 2010 I lost the weight, and 2011 I gained it all back. No more of that. Time to get down there and stay there!

I hope 2012 is good to all of you. May all of your resolutions come to fruition!!